Homesick

I'm so homesick today that I actually feel nauseous. This happens every now and then. I'll feel so unhappy here that a knot will form in the pit of my stomach. My throat tightens around a scream and my eyes burn fighting back tears. Some people are rooted and some are meant to wander. I'm rooted. But being away makes me feel like my roots have been severed and I'm not whole. I can't ever be complete somewhere that isn't Tennessee. I'll always be grateful to Georgia. I've done a lot of growing up here and have met some amazing people. I've started and developed my career in this town, probably better than I could have in Tennessee. I've spent a large portion of my time here by myself because of Sam's schedule and it's actually been a good thing. People are scared to be alone, scared of being left with just their thoughts. I've become at home with myself and ok with my thoughts, strange and quirky as they may be. Solitude a state away from all that is familiar matured me. That said, I still miss Tennessee and long for home. I'll be back one day, a better person than the girl that left.